| Location | Bristol |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Still Birth |
| Date of Birth | 13/11/2000 |
| Date of Death | 13/11/2000 |
| Visitors | 1,220 since 22/11/2007 |
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My One And Only Shannan
Im Teresa Shannan's mum,and mum to seven boy's what a handfull i hear,no it was'nt.The day i found out i was expecting my first little girl,i was tatally blown away.''A Girl'' all i had was boy's now this was going to be differant. As the pregnancie progressed it was time to have that,all important scan hehe. Has i had the scan a voice in a quiet tone said ''would you like to know the sex of the baby''.Well how could i resist that thinking full well i knew it would be a boy. Well i think at the point she said i was having a little girl,my whole body felt so light i could of done a marathon round the hospital grounds. I was exstatic when we left and smiles across my face were even given me jaw ache,i was so happy.
As time went on i told my other boys which were only 4 of them as the other's left home,and said well you know what this means don't you'', this house will never be the same again with a girl in the family.They were so overjoyed and just kept talking about this little girl that was to be a member of our family. Time went on and months went by and like most mum's know when something is not quite right.I was taken to hospital and told that my little girl had died.
November 13th i delivered my little girl,she was just so beautiful to look at with the dark hair and such tiny little finger nails that were so perfect and in every other way a baby is. It was then i knew i was not going to be able to take this little girl home. I had bought her a outfit to wear if she had of lived and had the midwife dress her in that.
This was my time to show just how much love there was trapped,inside of me for this little girl. I dont know how hard my tears fell from my eyes,nor with the pain as i just felt so much joy that i was able to hold her and talk to her.After i came home and just before the funeral the boy's were given a chance to say their good-bye's to their sister.It was their choice and as a mother could not go against it. So much love filled the room and each of us able to hold and give the last cuddle.
I far by the rest have found it so hard to let go of this little girl that gave such,a huge grin on my face. Every year on her birthday that would of been,we have and mostly me have bought her something to which a little girl would of had at that age and put in a glass cabinet.We ahve pictures of her and it is so calming as my son's said it is important to have the picture's as she too was a member of our family and she belonged.
My son who is 22yr old now even had her name tattued on his arm in big letter's as that is being proud of who she was. I too have one as then if people say oh who's shannan then i feel she has not gone un-noticed even though she never survived. I have the love and determination to understand what a mother's nightmare is.and this is mine as we should never have to burie our children at what ever cost.
I also send my love to the other parents who have lost a child,at what ever age,and understand the pain.
I have always said it was better to have her and not to of had her even of the circumstance that surround her.
My heart will always go on,and never can i forget nor will i. Since losing Shannan i had a little boy, and it is so unbelieveable that they are identically alike in their looks and so much full of character and personality, I am sure that this little boy's love is blessed,and certainly will shine through.
Since 2006 my health has deteriated with lung disease,and i have since moved back to Bristol as we moved to s-o-t and im just so happy now that i and the rest of the family are able to go to our daughter's grave whenever we want. This has played a huge part in my life not being near to her. I have been given 3 to 5yrs to live,but that is because ive been the stupid one to smoke. So there for i cant do it for her but i can do it for the youngest which is Corey as him being only 7 this year,so with him having more years on the others i have more years.Each day is a battle as it is for my love for my daughter that i cant give a hug or kiss each day,and no one knows just how much tear can cost which is nothing,so this is why my tears are for her and not for me as i will be strong for her sake and my other boy's.Teresa
♩♪♫♬ HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU ♩♪♫♬
♫♬ HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU ♫♬
♫♬ HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR SHANNON ♫♬
♫♬ HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU . ♫♬
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Loving You
I cannot say i did'nt try as i wipe a Tear from my eye,
But knowing i had you was the best thing before a sigh,
Each day is a struggle that i cannot denie,
But you were and are still a little apple in my eye.
Mum xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
In a baby castle, just beyond your eye,
Your baby plays with angel toys that money cannot buy.
Who are you to wish him back into this world of strife,
No, play on your baby, they'll have eternal life.
At night when all is silent and sleep forsakes your eyes,
You'll hear their tiny footsteps come running to your side
Their little hands caress you so tenderly and sweet,
You'll breathe a prayer and close your eyes and embrace them in your sleep.
Now you have a treasure that you rate above all others
You have known true glory,
You are still their mother.
My love
For this special and i mean special little girl,the pain gets easier but the tears get stronger. Today of all days is hard as there is no party to arrange,just the cards that are put on the fire mantel and a small gift. Many will say im mad but i dont care as how can i be mad when my little girl is loved so much like my boys. Each day i realise life is too short,as with losing my sister too at a early age you know it should get better. With how we cope and deal with our loss every one is differant but one thing i do know is we all crave just to have our loved ones back so is that mad,not for us it isnt. Love to all who have a birthday memorie and to those you have lost. Teresa Willis (mom to shannan)
Happy Birthday In Heaven - by Winnie Lovett
"Happy Birthday Shannan"
It's sure to be the best one yet,
Though you left us here behind.
Did you think that we'd forget?
Your cake this year, will surely be,
A beauty to behold.
With the icing made of Silver,
And the candles made of Gold.
Yes, your birthday in Heaven,
Will be such a grand affair.
And I know you'll look so lovely,
With a halo in your hair.
The Angels will come from everywhere,
To sing your birthday song.
And I know they'll be so happy,
That you've joined, God's Happy Throng.
No I can't send a card this year,
Or give a gift so fine.
So I'll just send a special prayer,
To that wonderful Daughter of yours.
Little Sister - by Christie Wildman
For your other children XX
You have this little Sister,
She loves you very much,
But you’ll never get to see her,
Or feel her gentle touch.
She had to go away you see,
Through God’s garden gates.
Though she longs to meet you,
Heaven’s where she waits.
You have this little Sister,
She’s sending you her love,
Although she longs to be with you,
She watches from above.
She grew her Angel wings you see,
Though none of us were ready,
On one of heavens clouds she sleeps,
Cuddling her teddy.
You have this little Sister,
She’d love to come and play.
But for all eternity,
In the sky is where she’ll stay.
God had a plan you see,
He needs her by his side,
He’s shown her how to use her wings,
Through heavens clouds she glides.
You have this little Sister,
And though you are apart,
The love that you feel for her,
Will remain ever in your heart.
Born Still - by Unknown Author
Do you know how hard it is
To hold a baby who doesn’t cry?
Do you know how hard it is
To tell that baby Goodbye?
Do you know how hard it is
To look at an empty bed?
Knowing your child should be there
Resting her sleepy head?
Do you know how hard it is
Feeling you’re to blame?
And no matter what they tell you
You'll always feel the same.
Do you know the heartache
Knowing she's gone for good?
And feeling that you didn't
Do all the things you could.
Do you know how hard it is
To hear that it's Gods will?
Do you know the emptiness
When your child is born still?
Unfortunately we do!
To The Child I'll Never Know - by Gloria Dianne
How can I say Good Bye
When I never said Hello,
Why does my heart grieve
For the child I'll never know?
You were a part of me
For just a little while.
I grieve because I'll never see
The magic in your smile.
I grieve for all the unsaid words
That you will never say.
I grieve that I will never see
You happily at play.
I grieve for all the lullabies
That will remain unsung.
I grieve because I'll never see
Your face gleaming like the sun.
I grieve because you will never know
The comfort of my touch.
I grieve because you will never know
That you were loved so much.
I grieve for all the tomorrows
That will never be.
I grieve because God chose
To take you back from me.
You live among the Angels now
Your earthly mission done,
You will be so dearly missed
Good-Bye my little one.
X X
Birthday Presant crammed with love
Our special Shannan gosh 8yrs where have they gone. It may have passed this time with each day,but mine and all your brothers love just keeps coming.Well your'e shelf in the glass cabinet is now starting to explode as all your gifts are just there showing us all how much your'e missed, This year for a little girl of whom would of been 8 we have bought you your first necklace. With the precious stone that it holds is just as the same as your'e with us. Cards to celebrate your day are here for all to see. Your never apart as we cant give out love away, it just keeps growing as each day you too. For everyone who sees this pls take a look at our page,as this love is so unbeatable.mummy xxxxx
just to say...
just to say thinking of you at this hard time for myself and my family at the moment.i send all my love to you and you mummy.
love always gemma lee ellie-mae and jude xxx
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